My Legendary Girlfriend

I heard your voice once again
Strange that I should be talking to you
Sipping the sweet pain
That you sing to me with every word you say
And everything you do
Everything you say
Makes me miss you more and more
Each day
Every detail you fill me in
Drives the nail further down my heart
Bleeding
Like it should be
The moment we ended it all
Should've been a clean cut
Should've ripped it all out from the start
Instead I just lay there
Writing
Because I know not what else to do
Because sleep doesn't come easy
When your mind is ravcing
With thoughts about someone you love
Who once loved you back
Fleeting memories
Ghosts that I can't run away from
I'm losing my mind
Just as much as I'm losing you
Actually
You were never there anyway
It was only an echo
reverberating around the walls of my soul
Repeating every painful deja vu
Every painful memory
I don't know what else to do
Who else to turn to
I daren't sleep
Because I still wish I was beside you
I daren't wake up
Knowing you're not by my side
I daren't dream
Because once shattered
Twice shy?
Thrice maybe
Even longer
I can't go on writing
It pains me so
I'm bleeding once more from my pen
These heavy hearted words
And I don't know if you would realise
How different life is
Without you here by my side
But like you said
It's for the better
Somehow I feel worse
Than where I was before
But I've got to learn to let go
Of the ghost that you've become
Of the shadow you've casted
I've got to love again...
But how?

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